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September 24, 2012

Aloneness

The White Mountains


I awoke on Saturday morning to a day to myself. I don't think I have had a day like this for over 21 years, since becoming a mom. For certain there have been days since then of being alone, but this day stretched far and wide, and I knew that is was just the tip of the iceberg in this new chapter of my life. And surprisingly, it felt like heaven.

Always for me, aloneness has not necessarily meant loneliness. I am an introvert at heart, with an extroverted wing that creeps out every now and then, like a bird leaving its nest, only to happily retreat back into its little oasis.

I've been waking in the morning, for way too long, to our sun filled bedroom, only to be distracted by the grimy screens and windows that surround me. "Today is the day!", I thought. "It is finally time to clean them. I can't go through another winter not having better light." Getting this accomplished, with NPR's classical radio on in the background, you'd think I had won the lottery. Hot fudge sundaes? Good lovin? Nah. Such short lived wonderfulness, compared to clean windows!

From here, I went for a run, and came home to wash all the woolens in preparation for colder weather.

Sometimes I wonder if I am one of the simplest people to walk this earth.

Not really, but maybe some of you know what I mean.

3 comments:

  1. Nice post, I'll share with other mums ;) Thank you!

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  2. Louise, I'm feeling many of the same things. Our children are growing, but in a sense we are too. Oh how I'd love to share with you some of what I learned last week at Kripalu. To sum it up, continue to welcome it all; the love, the joy, the struggles, the pain. It's all about balancing what is. We are alive and able to feel! Love, Paige PS.For goodness sakes, the next time you "pee" giggle. xoxo

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  3. Thank you both. Yes Paige-I keep telling myself to just be in the moment with all of life. Thank you for the reminder to welcome it all. I wish I was at Kripalu. If you can tell us a little bit more.

    Many thanks, Louise

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