|Mount Washington's tippy-top|
Of course I had thought of the possibility myself, but quickly slammed the door on the likelihood of it happening, as if what lived on the other side of the door was the biggest boogie monster of them all.
Me, untethered to anyone other than my dear family & friends.
Dangling in the abyss, without the grounding cord of a long, long marriage. Finding my way through murky waters, a lone traveler, on a densely fog-filled road.
Those were the sort of visions I'd have in the middle of the night early on.
"But fears are just stories we tell ourselves,” I’d say to myself.
"Do what you're afraid to do," I'd say in the darkness of the night.
So many people make their way alone in life, at least for awhile.
Could I be one of them?
Because for me there finally came a fork in the road, in the marriage that I was trying to save.
At the fork, there was a new road that I had begun to pave for myself and I finally decided to take it.
Working to save my marriage felt like a bolder that I was trying to push up hill for way too long. So I stepped aside the bolder and allowed it to roll effortlessly past me.
We know a decision is right when every cell in our body applauds us in relief. This is how I felt when I let the bolder go.
The past 3 years gave me time to grow closer to my soul and what I need and don't need to carry on.
My soul is my partner right now, and it feels so right and so good.
And the new road I'm on,
is exactly where I should be. 💗