After an almost 2 year separation, MR. FIX-IT and I have been living under the same roof, having a new look at our 35-year relationship, through the lens of all that we have learned while apart, as well as sometimes together, but most importantly perhaps, through the lens of learning about ADULT ADHD and it's impact on our connection and our disconnection.
I’m looking at our marriage as a complex floor tapestry, which it has always been, but now with new light, shown upon its intricacy.
Much of the tapestry got sucked into a vacuum cleaner and torn while being vacuumed the last two years.
So we've set about mending it.
Attempting to reweave a torn union, mending it where is needs repair, but also adding in the new stands of colors, that have been missing.
Can we make a masterpiece out of the remnants?
This I know,
there is a lot of love here
and I’ve survived the torn and tatters, as the HEALING continues.
I've new perspective and understanding, but most importantly, compassion and better communication.
You know how Sully successfully landed that plane on the Hudson River?
Knowing what I do now, can I execute the same with my marriage? Is it possible for it to land better than it ever was?
These are the questions that I’ve been thinking about it.
These are the ponderings that when I’m an old lady,
that I’ll be happy I took the time to explore.
Marriage, like all relationships of course, isn't about landing the perfect triple gainer dive off the high board of life.
It is organically complicated, very WABI- SABI and always a work in progress.
And hopefully with its own sprinkling of soul magic.